Jinx

Do you believe with jinx, curse, or whatever you call it? I don’t really believe in this. That it just happened by chance and that people just call it as jinx. Read my story and you’ll know why this article was entitled Jinx.

At the year 2004, i had my first boyfriend our relationship ended after 4 months because of another girl. I am so sad, heart broken, feeling alone as i can’t say my problem to my father as he’s my “confidante”, aside from being my father i also sees him as one of my best friend, best buddy. After two months my ex-boyfriend called me up. He asked for my forgiveness and if we can still be friends, by that time i am still sad but moving on. I told him what i felt and said i can say that i already forgive you even if i don’t mean it. I told him that let me forget what happened and let me move on and i can tell you with all my heart that your already forgiven. Now were friends.

The girl i am talking to a while ago don’t stop texting me even if she’s together with my ex-boyfriend. I don’t know what she’s up to as she asked me if we can still be friend. Whose ex-girlfriend wants to be friend someone who’s the reason her relationship with her ex-boyfriend end up? I didn’t answered back as i don’t want to be “plastic”. And everyday i just don’t want to see her face as were leaving at the same place and possible to meet along the way.

Haven’t seen her for a while but one Sunday, i think she and her mom came from the church, me and my boyfriend saw them, but my boyfriend didn’t know her and i didn’t tell him at that time who she is as my mind is occupied by something else. Something like being with my boyfriend is far more important rather than to discuss things about her. I think of it as something unimportant and my boyfriend is going home at that time so i don’t want to tell to him things like it that might take me with my bad mood. But that Sunday me and my boyfriend broke up after seven months out of nowhere. It is actually his decision but i don’t want to elaborate it more. Maybe it is just by chance that i saw her that day and something like that happened. Something that will make me feel bad happened again. What a life. But still i am standing both with my feet and enjoying my life as i want it to be. Me and my third boyfriend (now ex) is still in contact. We still chat but of course a lot had change. Still i am glad that were friends right now. I can’t say i am hundred percent happy with what happened but still i accept it as part of life, part of learning, an experience which will help me through life and which will give me more confidence and bravery to face whatever it is that i will encounter while i am into the journey of my life.

Today is actually funny and annoying. Here’s why, early in the morning i AGAIN saw the girl i am pertaining to a while ago. At that time i bought something to eat for my breakfast as i need to leave early as me and my friend will visit our very close friend confined at the UST Hospital. We bought some fruits for my friend. And then i asked her how we can go to UST as i don’t know how to go there from Monumento then we decide to ride on a jeep going to Recto and then take another jeep from there that will bring us to UST but unfortunately that way is too far from UST. We walk under the heat of sunlight (Argh…). At that time it is already eleven and i am thinking will i be late for work while also thinking about my friend status in the hospital? And then we arrive at UST, we asked the guard where is their hospital he told us to walk straight up and we thought it is not far from the entrance and you guess, yeah it is far from it (Grrrr… i am tired…my breakfast wasn’t enough to give me such energy…hehehe). At last, we arrive at her room. We saw her with her mother and aunt. Fortunately, she’s fine and recovering. They actually didn’t expect us to be there. Her mother didn’t know our numbers but one of our friends which happened to be her co-worker too told it to me and i told it to our other friends.

At around twelve fifteen, we said goodbye to them as i need to go to work and we want her to take some rest as if we will be there for long she might not get it as she’s already making fun of each of us and we’re enjoying each others company and yeah we missed each other a lot as for a long time we haven’t seen each other because of our busy schedule. And again we ride on a jeep going to Tayuman for us to ride on LRT 1, unfortunately LRT 1 was broken and so we had to ride on a jeep again going to Recto for us to ride on LRT 2 going to Cubao and then we will ride to MRT going to Ortigas.

Finally, i arrive to Ortigas station and seeing the time which is almost two o’clock i am now half walking half running just to be at our office on or before my time. And now i am at our building waiting for the elevator. Now count; ten, nine, eight, seven, six, five, four, three, two, one; yehey i am in front of our office. I log-in (crossing my fingers) expecting to see that i just came right on time. And <toinks> i arrive at 2:02, two minutes late. We have EOTM incentive and if we’re not late for the whole month (damn…what a waste of time and effort…and think of this it only a few days before this month ends…). Oh did i already mentioned that i haven’t eaten my lunch. Yeah, haven’t eaten my lunch thinking the time and the incentive. (huh really i am furious…)

Now tell me, is she a jinx in my life or those just happened by chance?